I'm so Glad I Live in a World Where There are Octobers
It's kinda the best month of them all. I'm not sure on your taste, but I am a sucker for cozy nights staying home and it seems like October is the opening act to a season made for this. This season brings more intention with our time, as the year is coming to an end faster than we think and it causes us to start evaluating how we spend our time a little more. This season welcomes home cooked meals around a table for all who can make it. It just makes me happy.
The interesting side to this love for October is that even though this is pretty much my favorite month out of the whole year, I still have faced enormous amounts of stress, tears, anxiety and fear. Not throwing in the towel here, not saying "oh, look at poor me"- just being real. Even with the start of the season that makes my heart skip a beat, s@#% still hits the fan.
The scary part is how easy it is to stay in the depth of "poor me", to stay the victim -thats so easy. The hard part is not trusting your thoughts or your feelings and speaking to yourself with what emotional strength you have left saying "don't listen to that lie, you're okay, and everything is okay."
We just keep going. We just keeping moving.
Looking at the lives of those around me with great success, it seems the common detail is just that they never stopped. They never let whatever it was that happened or keeps happening that is so hard, stop them. It sounds like a faint concept standing next to our big, real life challenges, but it really is that simple. Just keep going.
This month is too grand, this season is to cozy to not be able to fully enjoy all that it has to offer. Keep going, keep talking about it, keep showing up, keep being yourself. The weight will lift in time. Be bold when you have the strength.
I'm not sure where this quote came from but I love it -
Apply for that job. Date that person. Buy that plane ticket. Move to that city. Do all the things that scare you, they're worth it.